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I know myself well. That's why I don't create situations unless I know I can handle them. Not being hurt.. Somehow I only take chances if it's a backup plan. This is what I do. This is why I delete numbers because sometimes I am crazy or I miss... This is why I am friendly but distant... Unless I am sure...But when I am sure, I am more crazy...

I don't know what to do... or what should i do... Honestly, I am feeling as if i live somebody else's life and dear, this is unfair. But I only ask patience from myself and from the others.. well, i ask nothing. No more. I'm not sorry for my pain, it made my the person I am today. The strong one, how she loves to call me. This is the only way, mate. To grow stronger. This is how you survive this. All this. This shitty but wonderful life. Let it hurt. At least, you feel something.